Faded

Sometimes I feel unfair because you have been PDA (public display affection) at the space I could see. As I could see all the while you’ve been lying to me by telling me you’re still care and wouldn’t get attach in a short while. Now we see wtf are you doing. I real salute to you. 

Eventually I’m truly understand I actually don’t have the right to think your happiness is cruel to me. I’m staying alone because I don’t wish to use anyone to help me move on. The saddest part is actually I thought you are good but is more worst that what I’ve imagine. I’ve been telling around YOURE NOT THAT BAD, YOURE JUST HAVENT MAKE THING RIGHT YET. I’ve been really positive to YOU. Now, you have a gf, I try my best to wish you and her happy forever by sincerely. We know sometimes we can’t when there’s something come to our mind that recall from the memories. 

Lastly, you are like a growing kid that need a woman to take care of you, prepare for you, just be there for you. Well I know I need a MAN, a real man that could protect me at the first time, could give me a real promises by real action, could be a very caring man, and most importantly understand I have to support my family by my own career. Because some people just could understand they only are the one who stress for the dept and supporting the family. 

It’s not impress when you tell me you still love me like 3 months ago? And actually all the while you’ve been flirting with that girl which is your new gf. I feel disgusting to think about that seriously. What you did that really proving me right is that I didn’t choose you. 

This post is so not me as I've been trying to tell myself have to considerate everything happen for a reason. This will be the first and it will be the last to remind myself.

Thank you for making me growing up. I’m sincerely thanks for that.

p/s: a cheater, forever a cheater.